May 04, 2005

Hurry up and Wait

I just got back from a visit with Doug this weekend. As usual it was great. Adrienne went with me, and she absolutely loves it there, well, cause theres a ton of guys! Doug will hopefully be coming home for the weekend in two weeks, and I am really keeping my fingers crossed that he can.

This is going to be a challenging thing for me, and him as well I think. This whole relationship thing. I am up for the challenge though. I think he is worth the long abscences, and the short visits, and the worries that I will endure.

It kinda stinks though, because I am so motivated when I am counting down to see him, so excited, cant wait, up at 4:45 AM to get ready to go to the gym every day during the week, and eating healthy, working a lot, and all that good stuff. By the time the weekend ends from seeing him and I am back home, I think it takes me at least a week to want to do anything. I haven't went to the gym yet, I have been eating like crap (but part of that reason is I think when I am down there we eat whatever, so its hard for me to get back on track when I get home) and I am exhausted like non-stop.

I guess its kinda a normal reaction, given the fact that I don't know when I will see him again, not that it will be years, because if anything (as long as he is still in the United States) I will see him by the end of June I believe I figured it out to be. At least I know I always have a traveling companion since Adrienne, the day after we got back, asked when we were going again.

Alright, so I know this whole thing is rambling and not really flowing in any rational manner, but oh well what can you do. The last thing I will say is, I never in a million years thought that I would want anything to do with a Marine. If you told me I could have my pick of any Marine I wanted I would be like "no thank you" but, that was before I met Doug, and got a better understanding of what exactly it is to be a Marine, and why exactly he wanted to become one to begin with. I always had respect for our troops and things like that, but I just never understood it. I always thought, oh they probably join to get free college or something. Because I could never imagine why else someone would want to risk their lives in the way that they do.

I just have such respect for Doug and his friends that I have met down in North Carolina, and all Marines actually. They hold such a respected title I can't even explain it. If you knew the things that they have to go through in order to even become a Marine, let alone the things they have to go through once they have achieved the title, then you would understand why I admire him so much.

Well, this weird rambling mess should be put out of its misery at this time. So, I will end this now. Counting down the days until I see Doug again...

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Posted by: kate at May 24, 2005 01:38 PM
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